poetry

The Periodic Table

cheap chain motel restaurants,
breakfast buffets heaped
with limp meats
soggy pancakes
and under ripe fruits,
waitresses who
sigh and massage cramped
legs when they suspect
no one is looking.

This is where we
spend our morning-afters,
where I wish these
morning-afters
would turn into
morning-always,
sitting at these
these periodic tables
we scan menus
gummy with grease and syrup,
smoking cigarettes
and trying to pretend.

We sit, sleepless, ripe and raw,
indifferent to old men
reading newspapers in
corner booths,
damp and chlorine scented
children running and weaving
through the aisles,
weary parents
restraining yawns

you will say the same silly
remark to these
generic waitresses
you will make our same private
joke when the check comes,
the one I will not repeat now
because it pains me to think of it,
and after all this time
you would still say it
the right way
and I would
love it
no less.

Sitting at these
periodic tables
twice in a month
or once in a year
I watch you
add three creams and
two sugars
in the cup before
the coffee is poured.

I know that when you
shake the last Marlboro loose,
the one you keep
upside down in the pack,
the one you say is for
good luck,
that this is the cue,
and that soon, again,
the waitress will take my plate
cold and untouched
and you will get in your truck,
I will get in my car
and we will drive off
alone
and one day,
as I look back in the rearview mirror
I will realize just how much
you always leave me starving
but almost nearly fed.


Today

Baby has cried for
three days, it seems,
wrung-out, exhausted,
can’t pay the sitter again this week.

Food stamps ran out last week,
payday’s not ‘til Thursday.
Count quarters for a gallon of milk.
Don’t depend on a child support check,

he isn’t working anyway.
Mirror says get a haircut,
checkbook says flat broke,
Today is yesterday all over again.

(This poem first published in the 2006 Edition of The Huron River Review)

spring is yawning

green shoots urge forward
impatient toddlers
extending arms
warm air
mothers breathe
urban birds
typewriter staccato
tree buds
tiny knobby knees

it's not that i'm shy, it's just that i'm paying attention to details

you   

smell like

  someone I used to love

     (I noticed it right away)

 

 something   

spicy-earthy-red-browngreen

 

that I always thought 

 was   

exclusively,

 

            organically

                        his

The Language of Women

Handsbyjamelah Dementia, disease, cancer, age
these thieves have hidden the words just out of reach,
stolen the meaning from the faces framed on her dresser 
Daughter or husband might as well be
shoe or teapot

I come to bathe her, to ease her
warm water streams through her hair,
winds down her back
trickles into her cupped hands
with a sigh, she closes her eyes,
breaths the scent of lavender and roses
she knows this place

a moment in time born again
she laughs, standing in the rain,
bright and beautiful
the first kiss
the last kiss
the language of women
is not so often spoken in words

(Marcie's note: This poem is on permanent display at Washtenaw Community College)

I wanna live

I said
I don’t wanna look at your factories, your prisons,
your silos,
your cornfields,
I wanna live

I said
I don’t wanna see dead deer slung across the hoods of rusty pick up trucks
swinging from trees like offerings to the Gods of NASCAR
or listen to complaints about the cost of doe permits this year
I wanna live

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I wanna live

I said
I don’t wanna look at your factories, your prisons,
your silos,
your cornfields,
I wanna live

I said
I don’t wanna see dead deer slung across the hoods of rusty pick up trucks
swinging from trees like offerings to the Gods of NASCAR
or listen to complaints about the cost of doe permits this year
I wanna live

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everyone knew

I know who you are,
she says
stubbing a cigarette out
with worn yellow fingers
you lived on Lincoln Avenue
with that boy
didn’t you?
we could hear your screams
from 3 blocks away

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The poem I wrote at the Laundromat this morning

I toss my assortment
of candy colored panties
towards the open mouth
of the industrial size dryer

The not-so-old man
two dryers over
stares hard and greedy
as if I am throwing
handfuls of sweets from
a parade float
and
deliberately
missing him

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